So it's been two weeks since my opherectomy and I'm nervous to say, so far so good. I have had some pain and soreness, but the menopause, not so bad, the first 2 times were worse (in my 20's because of endometriosis and during chemo) no depression, anxiety is no worse than it has been, I pretty much feel like I felt 2 weeks ago, so yeah I guess, one more hurdle crossed and I'm still standing!
Thursday, January 26, 2012
Sunday, January 22, 2012
Saturday, January 21, 2012
Thursday, January 19, 2012
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
I am now a post menopausal woman. Everything went well, all done laparoscopially can go home, nothing alarming or unexpected, kept my uterus (yeah) thanks for all the good thought and prayers. Tired, drugged, and ready to go home :-)
To clarify, my uterus stayed in body, not like in a jar on my nightstand!
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
<p>So another surgery tomorrow... I will have my ovaries removed. Now I have know that the was happening for several months, but now that it's here, I'm terrified. I have been putting off thinking about it, but driving home from work today, I totally panicked, like balling in the car, unable to breathe panic. So I called my friend (poor anna) just sobbing, poor thing probably thought the worst, so after I assured her that my health was fine I unloaded on her my every emotion and fear and frustration. I just feel like I have given and have to give up so much, I mean I am literally losing everything that makes me a women, and honestly, at 33, it's just a lot to realize. Of course i am greatly for life and all I have and I will do everything I need to to ensure and maintain complete remission, but sometimes it's just too much. Even with a great support system and for a great treatment team, it's a lot.
Monday, January 16, 2012
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
Wow, so the holidays came and went, I can't believe that they're over and its 2012! I really feel like I kind of lost a whole year. I am happy to move on to a new year, but scared too. Last year I was sure 2011 would be a great year, my mom would be entering the year cancer free, my parents had just bought a home 2 miles away, kids were great, it was going to be a great year, then in February I found a lump, just 2 months into the new year... So now I'm a little scared to be optimistic and hopeful, because just when you think everything is OK and no more bad can come, it can. So as ready as I am for a good year, I will enter it cautiously and try to resolve to appreciate my children everyday (auto correct suggested I appreciate my parents, hair, and house...) attitudes, temper tantrums and all, and to be grateful for the amazing support system I have.